Monday, June 25, 2012

Baby Mac - 1 Month



Dear Mac,

I can't believe you're already a month old.  Sometimes I'm amazed that it's already been four weeks since you arrived and other times I'm amazed that it's only been four weeks.  You're such a wonderful addition to our little family.  These four weeks have been the most challenging and incredible weeks of my life.  Despite all the reading and research I did before you got here, nothing prepared me for being a new mom and the emotions that come along with it.  I've never loved anything so much and I'm constantly shocked at how intense that love can be - it's buried deep within my soul and grows exponentially stronger by the minute.  It's such a consuming love that it overwhelms me sometimes and I find myself in tears wondering how I'll ever be able to keep you safe your whole life.  I definitely see how mothers can pick up cars for their children...I think I could move a semi-truck for you if I needed to.  


I know I'm totally biased, but you are the most beautiful baby I've ever seen.  You have deep bright wise eyes that I can get lost in.  Right now they're still a dark grey and we have no idea whether they'll turn blue (like mine) or brown (like your dad's).  You have the softest lips and the cutest little nose, which I used to think was mine, but now looks like your dad's.  You have giant hands that we call mitts (all the better to play baseball with), long skinny legs and huge feet with monkey toes (all the better to swing from trees with).  Your dad thinks you'll be a great swimmer with those paddles on your feet!  Your umbilical cord fell off after about three weeks and now you have the most adorable little belly button.  You have a little birthmark on your butt that we love.  Everything about you is perfection.


You're already such a wonderful little person.  Your personality is just starting to show and you are funny and happy.  You make the best little squeaking noises and squeals when you're happy and the funniest faces and grunts when you're not.  You have a great O-face when you're trying to poop that cracks me up.  You love tummy time and you love hanging out on your changing table.  You just kick away and talk to me.  You get the hiccups daily and you hate them.  You sneeze all the time and I pray  that you're not allergic to cats or dogs - surely not, as you're constantly covered in dog hair, like everything else in our house.  You're a good sleeper, as long as you're sleeping on me or your dad, which most of the time is fine with us.  We can't get enough of you and I have the hardest time putting you down (you're in my arms right now).  I spend hours just holding you, cuddling you and staring at you.  You and I pass our days in a warm spot on the couch, just being close to each other.  I have a crazy desire to memorize every inch of you and I never want to forget every second of our time together.  I can't seem to get anything done because I'm too busy just absorbing you.  You get about six thousand kisses a day, which is never enough.  


Your only issue right now is your insatiable hunger.  You're just like your daddy in that you want to eat a lot and you eat FAST.  When you're hungry, you can't get food into your belly fast enough and you end up gagging and choking and sucking in a lot of air in your attempt to eat as quickly as humanly possible.  Sometimes you forget to breathe when you're eating and then panic to get air, which leads to a freak-out by both you and us.  We joke that you already have a drinking problem.  We remedy the situation by trying to feed you while you're still mostly asleep, which works much better.  And despite the issue, you're getting plenty to eat and are already up to almost 11 pounds!  You're finally getting some chubby cheeks and a few little rolls on your thighs.  The other day I swore you had a double chin...I absolutely love it!  


Of course, this first month of your life was filled with so many "firsts" that it's been hard to keep up with them all.  Your first car ride, your first bath, your first walk around the neighborhood, your first trip to the farm.  You're going to have so many "firsts" over the next few years and I'm so excited and honored to get to experience them with you.  Each one has made me proud and yet also a little sad that you're already growing up so quickly.  I'm trying to document everything and my camera is quickly filling up with thousands of pictures that I probably won't have a chance to go through until you're in college.  I don't know how other mamas manage to take (and process) so many photos of their kiddos and write full daily blog posts to go with them.  I'm lucky if I can get one post done every couple weeks!  I typed this one with one finger on the iPad while holding you, and it's already a week overdue.  Hopefully I'll get better.  


You are more than I could have ever imagined. little man.  I spent so many days and nights praying for you and dreaming of you, it's just the most wonderful thing ever that you're finally here in my arms, sqirming and squeaking.  I'm so proud to be your mama.  Thank you for being my baby.

Love,
Mama

31 comments:

  1. He's such a cutie! Happy 1 month birthday Mac!

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  2. Ohmigosh. He is absolutely beautiful!!

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  3. Aww, happy 1 month!! Sounds like you are all doing well, which is wonderful!! :) And kudos to you for blogging at all, I haven't managed it yet. I could, I just can't think of anything to say that really expresses what I want. So I just post gobs of pictures on FB instead. He's a very handsome little man, and a lucky guy to have such a great mama!

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  4. What a sweet letter to your little man! He is such a cutie pie! Keep those pictures of him coming!!!

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  5. Awww, I just love your letters to Mac. He is so blessed to have you for his Momma. These "letters" you've written him will be precious to put in his baby book or baby scrapbook!!
    I sure love seeing his pics..he is absolutely adorable!!! I would spend my days holding him too... :)

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  6. Love it! He's adorable. And Sadie used to latch on so ferociously it was like she had never been fed before. ;) I can't believe he's so big already! Also, please come to my house and take nice pictures of my baby for me that look like yours :)

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  7. What a beautiful letter, Sarah! He is SO cute. Happy 1 month!

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  8. My goodness he is one beautiful baby!! I hope you are getting some sleep!!!

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  9. Happy One month...What a handsome lil man you have!!! I feel the same way, I can not believe how fast time is flying by!!!

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  10. I can't believe he's already a month old! Time really does fly! That is one good looking baby! :)

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  11. It's been a month?! Wow. He is getting so big. I love his little expression and those wise eyes you mentioned. He's amazing.

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  12. I can't believe it's already been a month!! He is too precious for words- you're one lucky mamma!

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  13. Such a sweet post! And that little Mac just couldn't be more beautiful. You're such a great mama.

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  14. happy 1 month! what a sweet letter to your little one.

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  15. He is SO cute. And don't worry, once he goes to bed at a more normal hour and stays asleep all night (maybe ~months 3-4?), you'll have a lot more time to process all those photos!

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  16. Such a stud muffin!! Handsome little dude!

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  17. This was such a sweet post. He's so freaking cute I can't even handle it. And I, too, can't believe a whole month has gone by.

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  18. Happy 1 month!! Did you take all of those pictures? They are all so great. I love your words - can certainly tell that you love him dearly :)

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  19. such a handsome little guy! I can't hardly even remember when Elyse was that small!

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  20. He is so adorable :D I love it! I love his little "Mac" onesie too, cute!

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  21. Can you believe our boys are a month old already?! Gah! The time is flying by! Mac is so handsome! I love all his hair! So cute!

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  22. AHEM. Most important FIRST is still forthcoming: First Snuggle From Crazy Aunt Ally, DUH.

    My stars. I love him. He's perfect. I love you. I love your little family. I can't believe a year ago we were talking about babies and now you have a baby!! I LOVE IT. Ahhh!!

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  23. This makes my heart so happy, he is such an adorable little guy. A great letter to look back on in future years, or even months!

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  24. I just stumbled onto your blog quite accidentally today, and I love it! We have a new little pumpkin at our house, too. He's working on being four months old, and when I looked at your post about the "Big Cry," all I could think of was, "She and I could do the Big Cry together!" Been there. Done it. And now, as we're getting so much bigger and older, things are settling down and tummy issues and all the nonstop wailing has almost come to an end. There is a light at the end of the tunnel! And I love, love, LOVED the nursery pictures! Wowzer! I should have you and your little man over for coffee (to keep us awake!) and have you redesign our nursery while I rock both babies! :o) Congratulations! He's the SECOND CUTEST baby right now!

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  25. GREAT POST:)
    Your blog is so wonderful and Im following...I hope you follow me also:)

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    Have a great week.

    LOVE Maria at inredningsvis.se
    (sweden)

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  26. Oh, Sara. I am brand new to your blog, but I feel like I know you already. Even though my first-born is almost 7 years old, your sweet letter to your son takes me right back to those first weeks. Yes, other moms get more done, but I can tell that you are contemplative to your very core. You will NEVER regret absorbing every moment with your boy. All those other things will get done when it's their time.

    My son and I are still very close, and I believe it is because I spent so much time gazing at him, holding him, feeding him, and snuggling him...to the detriment of housework, schoolwork, and even time with my hubby. Yes, there are things I would do differently now (like making sure I got enough sleep), but I wouldn't change those important moments of giving in to that soul-crushing love I felt. Your description of that love brought it all back, and I also had no idea how I was going to protect him. I just knew I would do anything to keep him safe. Now I know what you will soon learn...you are not alone in the job of protecting him. He will be safe at every turn, and you will grow stronger in your ability to release him...but don't worry about it now...right now you're doing EVERYTHING right!! Peace to you. ~Angela

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  27. He is so precious and SO lucky to have a mama that loves him so much AND takes such beautiful pictures! It just keeps getting better, enjoy :)

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  28. He's such a beautiful little guy. Seriously, his skin looks perfect and I love his little expressions. Happy 1 month Momma! How are you feeling?

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