Monday, March 31, 2014

Just A Swingin'

Every minute I spend with this child feels like a blessing, a gift, a reward for some unknown good deed that I must have done in a prior lifetime. 
He has enriched my life, captivated my heart and changed my soul in a way that I never knew was possible.
 I constantly catch myself looking at him and wondering how I ever got so lucky.
I can't believe he's mine.
I can't believe he loves me.
I can't believe I get to be his mama.
Our days of it being just the two of us are limited and I have been trying to soak up every second of our afternoon walks around the neighborhood, picking up sticks, chasing squirrels and talking about our day.
I don't worry about my capacity to love another child as much as I love him...I know that will happen, that my heart will just grow and accommodate in the most wonderful and unexpected ways.  I know I will love them differently, but equally, and in ways that I can't yet imagine.
But I do worry about my ability to meet the needs of two separate individual children, in different phases of their lives with different wants and requirements.   They need so much.
I hope I can be enough...that I have enough...that I am enough.
Most importantly, I hope they always know how much they are loved, how much they were wanted and how proud we are.

12 comments:

  1. Love this! I feel like you took the words right out of my brain...the first part at least! I'm not quite there with a baby # 2 just yet, but we're working on it! :) You take the best action pics of your little Mac!

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  2. You will be enough...Mac is the luckiest boy in the world to have you as his mama and little baby miss on the way will be too! Cannot wait to live vicariously through you!

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  3. Mac is one lucky little boy and your daughter will be equally as blessed! I totally am with you on the first half of your post today about just being in so much love with these kiddos! Kinda crazy but I have a similar post (minus the 2nd kid part) written for tomorrow! :)

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  4. Such sweet pictures & such a sweet mama!!

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  5. Beautifully written! I love that Liam is also starting to be able to talk about his day... It's just incredible. Parenthood is incredible. How exciting that you get to experience it all for a 2nd time here soon.

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  6. You will always be enough. You are such an amazing mommy, and your littles are so beyond blessed to have you!

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  7. You will be more than these two precious babies could have ever wished for. I can't wait to continue to watch you capture their joy and innocence in pictures...you're a beautiful photographer and mother!

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  8. This is just the sweetest, Sara. You will always be enough for your babies. You will. Love these pictures of Mac!

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  9. This post brought tears to my eyes. Love love love!

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  10. This made me tear up and makes me want to go hug my little one!

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  11. You ARE enough! Those two (one and a half?) babes are super lucky to have you for a mama. Post definitely got me teary. Beautiful!

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